I have seen people react differently when confronted at the exact moment they made fun of you. Even though it takes a lot of courage to stand up to your bullies, speaking your mind & keeping yourself at the top of your list of priorities is what everyone should practice. It's been ages since I have stood up for myself. And the reasons I give myself, to make me feel okay about it, might seem like a bunch of excuses to others. But how can I tear myself up again just to avoid this conflict of thoughts with strangers? They don't know what I've been through. They don't even know how many times I've practised this to be here in the first place. I agree. It takes a lot of courage to stand up for yourself in front of others. But people should also know that it requires, even a more significant deal of effort to protect yourself from your self-sabotaging thoughts.
"SHUT UP!!!"
The high-pitched voice of Sulagna pulled me out of my thoughts. I could see tears filling up his reddened eyes as Gaurav stood covering his left face with his hand. When I turned to my right, I could see drops of anger rolling down the face of Sulagna, pausing in between to shine bright under the street light & reclaim her strength. Before I could say anything, she grabbed my hand & walked right past Gaurav.
In a few minutes, we were out of his sight. Even though the grasp on my hand was strong enough to not let me shiver alone, I could still hear the fainted sobbing sound. Never have I ever met someone who could feel what I feel, never have I ever known someone who accepts me in all my being, never have I ever fallen for someone, not once, not twice but every moment.
When I stopped suddenly, Sulagna realised that she was dragging me all along & looked back at me. The flowing tears had made a runway on her cheeks. Looking at her eyes made me realise that there will never be someone who can make me feel safe, loved & respected as she does. I pulled her closer & held her face in my palm. My lips were still stuttering to form words but I guess my eyes gave them away. The next thing I knew was her lips on mine, sharing the strength of life, love & eternity...
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